Don't force me.

I was that close to losing it today. If there's one thing I absolutely hate, it's people forcing me to do things I don't want to do.

I won't guarantee that the next time this happens, I will be able to control my temper. Because I know for sure I won't.

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on a lighter note, the xiaxue/dawnyang fight has now been brought to a whole new level. Check out this and this.

i can only say that i think she's pretty much ruined.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 7:21 PM

nanyang concept test on saturday was kind of screwed. physics was a total lost cause and stupid chemistry had h3 inside which i didnt think of studying since the NCT website claimed that the test was based on H2 chem syllabus.

and other stuff happened to make things worse but i guess it would have happened sooner or later anyway. i just wish it didnt have to. But i won't be taking any sides or making any choices whatsoever.

everyone's mugging now. so much so that it's actually scary. people that usually slack their asses off are mugging like there's no tomorrow. and yet i m running out of steam and losing motivation to study especially after looking at my econs grades which are like shit, to put it mildly. and H3 makes everything worse cuz it's so content heavy i wish i had another brain to put all that stuff in it. like those new type of handphones that can store 2 SIM cards. heh. yes i know it's lame but that's the best joke i can crack under the current circumstances.

i m looking forward to after As.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 3:38 PM

i can't handle all three at one shot.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 5:04 PM

i had forgotten. and then fate decided to remind me.

现在剩下的，应该只有遗憾。可是为什么我所感受到的遗憾中却带着一丝丝的伤心呢？
because i still care too much.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:05 PM

havent blogged for a week cuz i haven't had the mood to. anw here's a brief version of the past week's happenings:

1) i lost my pencil case. which includes my normal calculator and a stapler i've had since primary 1.
2)math improved from an S to a B.
3)chem and econs were disasters compared to some of my classmates but then again, i daoed chem during the hols and my econs has always been terrible so it's not really unexpected.
4)H3 schedule has been sort of swapped.
5)didnt really feel like talking the whole week.
6)just changed the class blog template but i don't think anyone will see anyway so i don't know why i did it.

haven't touched work since fri. have to clear everything by tomorrow cuz i probably won't have much time to do any backdated work during the week. now i know what the seniors meant when they told us to enjoy j1 life. cuz j2 life is really hell in that there's practically no time for u to take a break at all. so i guess i just may go on a hiatus very soon. especially since prelims are coming in slightly more than a month's time.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 12:35 AM

last day of blocks. physics paper 1 and 2 were screwed but seriously i didnt really care cuz i just wanted to get them over and done with.

watched zohan with the class. it was funny but the subtle and not so subtle sexual oonnotations made it slightly embarrassing to watch. but overall it wasnt bad.

went home and promptly got stalked again. like wtf. this is the 2nd time in 4 years. and the worst part is that this time the guy following knew perfectly well that i knew that he was following me. but he didnt care. that's what really freaked me out. i really don't get what's going on in the minds of these idiots. firstly, they must be freaking blind to choose me as a target. secondly, they must be damn screwed in the brain to stalk people.

i have to admit. i was as freaked out just now as i was back in sec 3. cuz no matter how many times these things happen, it never fails to be as scary. it's something that i will never be able to get used to for the simple reason that it should not even occur at all. PLUS. the person that stalked me in sec 3 was different from the person i saw just now . which means that in the span of 4 years, 2 stalkers have surfaced in my neighbourhood. which is totally wtf.

i hope that all stalkers die a horrible death. you don't wanna know the details going thru my mind now.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:39 PM