Source: colorgenics personality test

You have exaggerated demands on life but you are cautious enough to try to hide these beliefs from the outside world. You are covert enough to try to impress other people around you with your achievements and at the same time able to put on an act of pretending to be 'humble' - being the same as everyone else. It would appear, however, that whatever you are doing seems to be working out O.K.

You want what you want and you need all that you want and, as they say in the movies, you are the sort of individual that 'By hook or by crook' you will, by fair means or foul, endeavour to get what you are looking for.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive - perhaps it does not even exist.

All of your stress arises from lack of mutual understanding. The existing situation is unsatisfactory and you feel that you are unable to improve it without the help and co-operation of others. The need for understanding and for affectionate 'give and take' remains unsatisfied. You are experiencing the feeling of being 'handcuffed' - 'tied down' - 'hindered' - 'restrained' and this untenable situation is giving rise to impatience, irritability and the desire to escape from it all.

In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured

some parts are eerily true. haha.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:05 PM

FINALLY IT'S THE HOLS.

haven't updated in abt a mth cuz this mth was really crazy. damn busy with stuff. suddenly every teacher started cramming us with hwk, rushing to finish the tutorials so we don't have to come back to school in june, then with the then upcoming h3 tests (which i sat for on tue n fri) that covered a hell lot of topics, i really haven't had the time or mood to blog.

anw, dance nite was damn good. wanted to go last year but wasnt allowed to... so i was super happy that my dad allowed me to go for this year's shake! . originally thought i would be more interested in the hiphop items and stuff but that night i really 大跌眼镜 cuz everything was great. i don't think i have ever been more awake and excited watching a school production before. heh. originally wanted to get the ppl flowers but since it's a bit funny to get flowers for guys i decided not to. haha.

the week after that was pure madness. celebrated hueykia's bdae on saturday(sneaked out as usual), studied h3 on sunday and helped my sis with some stuff she was doin for my dad (some church poster thing) and somehow ended up sleeping at 2am. monday was spent mugging h3 and rushing out homework. ended up multitasking at night between gp meeting and doing the ppt presentation for gp lsn the next day, doing econs trade tutorial, and mugging for h3. and so my entire grp for the gp presentation thing ended up sleeping at 2am. tuesday, wed, and thurs were all spent mugging h3 because there was just so much to study we all cldnt finish studying. therefore sleeping hrs were all readjusted to 1+am every night(at least for me). AND h3 mugging also continued before assembly every day so basically this whole wk it's just been h3, h3 and h3. which was totally driving me nuts. especially so when ppl like huifang wanqin huiping n marcus have already finished with their h3 while ppl like jocelyne, alvin n connie will be finishing with theirs next fri. and their syllabus is so much shorter than ours.

anyway i digressed.

the test on tuesday was screwed. to summarise the format of the test, we were given 4 spectrums from 4 diff kinds of spectroscopy and given 10 mins to identify the organic compound frm it afterwhich we were given 5 mins to present it to our assessor. and i screwed up majorly cuz the particular set of spectrums i chose(yup everyone was given something diff) was not easy, plus i panicked and cldnt derive the compound in that 10 mins so the assessor had to prompt me all the way until i finally managed to derive the compound. so basically tuesday's test was damn screwed. PLUS,to make matters worse, when i finshed which was abt 615, i came out to the bus stop. abt 3 mins later, i saw the bus. and cuz i was on the phone with yanting complaining to her abt my test, i was trying to get my wallet out of my bag with a hp pouch in one hand and the hp in the other. so i obviously didnt manage to flag down the bus in time and the bus just sped off right in front of me. and jiada who was standing nearby happily burst out into laughter -.-''' and so commenced my 0.5 hr wait for the bus cuz the nxt bus that came was so full there was no way i cld get up the bus. talk abt a suay day.

and i think my stomsch is protesting already. must have skipped one too many meals this week. have been feeling weird since tue with headache + giddiness + slight nausea + queasiness. which made studying for h3 ten thousand times worse as if it's not bad enough already.

anyway. i dun care already. i m gonna slack off for at least one week before mugging for blocks. haha.

off to slack le. =)

it's weird how easily the requirements of modern society can quash a passion for something, and how easily it can be rekindled by something so simple.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 2:54 PM

WARNING: DON'T READ ON IF YOU CAN'T STAND RAMBLING AND WHINING.

forced myself to go to sch today even with the blocked nose, ears + sore throat + cough + headaches as there was CT photo taking. felt feverish during physics lect but it could b becuz of the air con. practically had to coerce myself to stay for the whole day cuz there was not a single moment in time when i wasnt thinking of taking OCP since i already had an mc for today. still feel super shitty but i hope it'll be better tmr cuz i confirm have to go to sch tmr(sigh) cuz chem mock spa will be returned tmr and there's h3 lesson which will totally kill me if i don't go cuz then i won't understand a thing. oh and chem spa is on saturday.

sha le wo ba :X

i think i have said that arnd infinity times since wed night until now cuz of the stupid flu. let's just hope i don't start wheezing like last time. =S

oh and i realised a lot of ppl r down with flu too. it's practically one of the best times to fall sick since there's chem spa on sat, h3 lect test in 2 weeks time(and i havent started studying and it's really A LOT), and a whole lot of other stuff i am confused abt tt i have to clear up before sitting for BT2.

okay shall stop whining and rambling.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:46 PM

just when i thought things couldn't probably get worse, life just had to prove me wrong.

the things that matter the most to me are all shattering. how am i supposed to maintain the facade that everything is alright when it hasn't been so for so long?

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:17 PM

saw this in the afternoon when i was supposed to do my work and totally laughed until CMI. go listen. MUST listen. haha.

click here

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:40 PM