my threshold for pressure and stress, however high, still has its limit.

don't push it.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:00 PM

feeling damn depressed now.

how would you feel if you suddenly got a U for your best subject? When you have never failed an exam in that subject before?

and to make things worse, i failed h3 too. not that it came as a surprise. but seeing the marks will still give a shock.


i won't allow myself to cry over this.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:26 PM

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 1:30 PM

spent yesterday doin ne2twork stuff from 12-2+, met alvina n yanting at jurong point where we sat at mos burger and chatted for arnd 1hr+. n i decided to be nice n treat my sister to sushi by da-baoing some frm JP back home.

was planning to go out with her tmr aft sch for a 寿司大餐. BUT i ended up having ne2twork duty until 3 tmr so it's quite impossible. sigh. oh well. i suppose there's always next time.

anw. i just finished watching step up and alvin and the chipmunks back to back. (i m super behind time but better late than never right? haha) feeling quite blur now cuz i have been staring at the com screen since 9am until now. hopefully my CPU doesnt get fried. heh.

back to school tmr. i dun want. =(

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 3:09 PM

oh n talking about juniors, i think i saw linus at my church on good friday. haha. super random comment.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:48 PM

finally it's all over. physics paper was easier than expected but if i dun tink i'll get anything above a D cuz my standard is like that. haha.

anyway rushed out vbc poster after physics paper and chiong-ed down to orchard to meet the rest of the class at taka. sort of split up after lunch. walked around kino n cine (where we played photo hunt super noisily lol)for a while with connie, gen, xinying, cheryl n jieying before we went to douglas' house for kbox/mahjong.

his house is damn nice. i know i m about 1 year late in finding out about that but yup. better late than never right? at the risk of sounding like a suaku, the house is SO big and the entertainment room so fully equipped that i tink if i were to stay there i would never get down to studying. too busy playing already. haha.

anw, kboxed with them for quite a while before some of the juniors (linus, charles, wilson, mingchong, lincoln) came. 2 of them decided to play mahjong with jieying n cheryl upstairs and left the session while the rest of us carried on. it was quite fun cuz the company was good and cuz i havent gone kboxing in such a long time i forgot how to operate the remote control. heh. oh n btw linus' singing is damn nice. just dun ask him to go too high too. =p

some funny excerpts from this afternoon:

[while waiting for the 前奏 of 我们的歌 to end]
connie: 这是我们的歌吗？(in an 暧昧tone)
jieying: 是的。(in the same tone)
-xinying thinks it's from the mv until jieying speaks-

[during 童话 mv]
mv female lead to 光良: 帮我搬家。
one of the juniors(couldnt see who): 不要。
mv female lead to 光良 in the next scene: 帮我搬家！！
same junior: 不要！！

oh and thanx lots to douglas' mum for giving me, jieying n cheryl a lift to school cuz of the heavy rain. =)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:27 PM

i told myself that i would only blog again after blocks. but...

i cannot tahan already!

basically econs, gp, chem, and math were screwed. but in terms of screwedness, GP < econs < chem < math. and im quite sure the most screwed will be physics cuz i m currently in no mood to study already. keep playing and playing and playing. haha. and the paper will surely be another one set to kill us. so there's not much point right? heh. in fact the papers this week have been so damn tough that everytime i finish a paper, i feel damn gong. can feel the mental exhaustion.

maybe the school admin is trying to find a new way of eating brains. as in by frying them. anyway 吃脑补脑 what.

okay i know i m not making sense. haha.

maybe i should go back and try to study haha like i will do that for real. i shall try to.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 4:06 PM

completely random la... but i just realised that my angels(as in last year and this year) are both going on hol to hongkong this week. lol.

ya i m easily amused.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:39 PM

today my biological system went into the wrong time zone. it decided that it was december, that i am in a country with four seasons. oh and it also decided that i m a reindeer. in particular, rudolph.

and it was all thanks to the really hot (note the sarcasm) weather. i finished two entire rolls of toilet paper (just by blowing my nose) in less than one day, choked the toilet bowl while trying to flush the paper away, and not to mention my dressing made it look like i was going to go out in the middle of a blizzard or something like that.

oh and i know i should be mugging for blocks since i think i m behind time. but obviously i m distracted again. oh well.

anw.

5 days to blocks.
14 days to freedom or the closest i can get to it with As this year.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:13 PM

was just reading LJs just now and came across jieying's super reflective post. and that put me into a reflective mood.

someone once told me that i hold myself apart from others. as in, i don't allow others to get close to me. i guess that's quite true. because i learnt (the hard way) that the very people that you trust the most and are closest to, are the very same people that can hurt you the most. so it's sort of become a habit. a bad one i know but well... -shrugs-

anyway i think it's time i changed my template. it's NA already.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:52 PM

got myself a new mp3 player yesterday at the IT fair. it was quite a good deal... $199 for 4 GB plus a pair of earphones and a charger... and it also helped that my dad sponsored half the price. haha. anw the IT fair was really crowded. totally brought a new meaning to the phrase 水泄不通. and the floor was so badly littered with brochures that i was like almost wading through them. okay exaggeration but u get what i mean. oh and we got a new tv. LCD 22 inch from sony bravia. i was eyeing the super chio one from samsung that seemed to me to be more high res but my dad picked the sony bravia one cuz of the light sensor thingy (which seems to me to be a gimmick to get people to buy but that's just my opinion). anw it's still better than that old CRO tv at my home. haha.

oh n mass today at church was quite amusing cuz the priest started off the mass by saying how good the celebration of the mass was, and it was made better when he "wakes up in the morning and hears that manchester united lost at home". totally lmao. i think the man u goalkeeper must be kicking his own ass now. lol.

finally the hols are here. not that there's much time to slack cuz of blocks but at least i get to sleep late. no more 4 hrs of sleep per night for at least the next 7 days. yay! haha.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:41 PM

人因为梦想而伟大。失去了梦想的人就像失去了灵魂。why can't you just let her decide?

you don't bother about what we think, what we feel, what we want. because all you want is for us to follow the path that you want us to take.

we are responsible for the actions we take. we may make mistakes and make wrong decisions at times, but it is precisely through failures that we learn best. if you aren't going to let us fall, how are we going to learn? won't this be equivalent to a twisted type of mollycoddling?

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 3:21 PM

koped off jiafa's blog...

星星王子： 绝口不提爱你的星座?
爱对某些人来说，简单而容易。而对另一些人来说，却包含太多。物质、精神、尊严……如果不能真的确定那是自己想要的爱，就绝难说出口。即使心中爱意深切，却依然含泪沉默……这些，会是那些星座的行为？参考太阳和金星星座。


第一名：太阳或金星在处女座

爱本来是羞涩的，处女座代表的爱更是跟深沉、内敛、羞涩连在一起，即使爱意明确，却依然在内心犹豫不决，只等待对方表达。就像最珍稀的东西最难露 面，藏在处女心底的爱紧张而脆弱，仿佛是一不小心就会撕破的纸，任他辩论时候再能说，任伴侣如何暗示和要挟，他们也无法开启金口……

什么时候会说出来：当验证了伴侣对自己确是死心塌地的爱之后（问爱我吗？说嗯，爱的）；或者当发觉自己爱意减淡时（也不过说一句，是的，我爱过你）。

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guilty as charged. haha.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 12:32 AM

since it's the march hols, i shall post something very 无聊 here. the list of songs that i have accumulated for over i think 3 years that i wanna find but i haven't gotten down to finding yet.

Chinese
雨天 – 孙燕姿
菲尼莫属 – tank
不远 – 萧亚轩
不想哭 – 同恩
爱回温 – 温岚
love story – 范逸臣
一直 – 范逸臣
我们小时候 – tank
九十九分的幸福 – 元若兰 和 安东尼
旋律 – 林宇中
聪明 – tension
小情歌 – 苏打绿
其实还爱你 – 阿沁
复活 – 林宇中和金莎
welcome to my world – 克有伦
你不在 – 殷悦
finally – 王力宏
喜欢你 – 庭竹
小小 – 容祖儿
给自己的情歌 – 梁永琪
原来爱情那么伤 – 梁永琪
你爱我吗 – 樱桃帮
离家出走 – 叮当
私奔到月球 – 五月天
泪- 迷路兵
讨厌- 芮恩
傻瓜- 温岚
青梅铁马- 陈奕和乔乔
凌晨三点钟 – 张智成
我真的受伤了- 王婉芝
可不可以 – 叮当
习惯你 – 容祖儿
过云雨 – 张敬轩
当你离开的时候- 蔡健雅
一秒钟的永远 – 潘佳丽
需要你的爱 – FIR
爱在蔓延中 – 谢霆峰
飘零燕 – twins
彩虹 – 周杰伦
我不配 – 周杰伦
爱过 – FIR
那首歌 – 林宥嘉
消失 – 阿沁
婚礼进行曲 – 胡彦斌
表演 – 龚柯允
你最勇敢 – twins
路人甲 – 侧田
陪你等天亮 – 许慧欣
眷恋 – FIR
皇帝 – 胡谚斌
明天过后 – 吴克群
下流社会 – 元卫觉醒
陪我长大 – 容祖儿
回来 – 张祖诚
不会太久 – 江美琪
我们的纪念 – 李亚微
远远在一起 – 龚诗嘉
殉情记 – 廖隽佳
舍不得 – 小宇
讨厌红楼梦 – 陶吉吉
对的人 – 戴爱玲
I believe in love – WOW
So fun – 李圣杰
像个小孩 – 元味觉醒

English
Disease by matchbox twenty
Can’t hold us down by Christina Aguilera and missy elliot
Semi-charmed life by third eye blind
Gallery by Mario Vasquez and baby bash
You’ll be safe here by river maia
Perfect by simple plan
Miss independent by Kelly Clarkson
Startin’ by ayumi hamasaki
Pieces of me by Ashley simpson
SOS by rihanna
Wait a minute by pussycat dolls
Over by Lindsay lohan
All along by all American rejects
Are you happy now by michelle branch
Girl next door by saving jane
Move along by all American rejects
Good day by click 5
Star girl by mcfly
Something kinda ooooh by girls aloud
Famous last words by my chemical romance
I don’t need a man by pussycat dolls
The rockshow by blink182
Sweet escape by gwen stefani
Everywhere by michelle branch
True by ryan Cabrera
What I go to school for by busted
Tell me by Christina Aguilera
Basket case by green day
Thunder by astro ninja all stars
4 in the morning by gwen stefani
it’s like that by Mariah carey
rumours by Lindsay lohan
if everyone cared by nickelback
it’ll be okay by Amanda marshall
beautiful girls by sean Kingston
window by shirlyn tan
like a boy by ciara
I don’t wanna know by Mario winans, p diddy and enya
Real girl by mutya Buena
Purest of pain by son by four
Addicted by simple plan
How do I breathe by Mario
Hey you by Madonna
Almost by bowling for soup
Thks fr th mmrs by fall out boy
Your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus
Come to me by p diddy
You can’t stop the beat by hairspray all star cast
When I get there by max shanty
My sacrifice by creed
Tell me by p diddy
Over you by daughtry
Do it by nelly furtado
Stronger by kanye west
Potential breakup song by aly & AJ
I miss you by blink182
SOS by jonas brothers
Dare you to move by switchfoot
Family affair by mary j blige
Snow hey oh by red hot chilli peppers
Come so far from hairspray OST
Misery business by paramour
He said she said by Ashley tisdale
This one by aerosmith
Hanging by a moment by lifehouse
Almost, but by sleeq
paralyser by finger eleven
Pictures of you by the last goodnight
Teardrops on my guitar by taylor swift
Dawn by daphne khoo
Tattoo by jordin sparks
Never too late by three days grace
My girlfriend forgot me this Christmas by the click 5
Tell me by Christina Aguilera and p diddy
Crazy by simple plan
Boston by augustana
Love like this by Natasha bedingfield ft. sean Kingston
With you by Chris brown
When you look me in the eyes by the jonas brothers
Here I am by paul twohill
stop and stare by one republic
Breathless by Shayne ward
When I’m gone by simple plan
Only one by yellowcard
I’m like a lawyer with the way I’m always trying to get you off (Me + You) by fall out boy
Hot stuff by craig david
Save me by Corrine may
No air by jordin sparks
Keep on movin’ by five
Listen to your heart by DHT
Keep bleeding by Leona lewis
Love song by sara bareilles
how to touch a girl by jojo
give it to me by timbaland
come down to me by saving jane
long distance phone call by saw loser
catch your wave by click 5
come rain come shine by tata young
run it! By chris brown
happy birthday by click 5
just so you know by jesse mccartney
love by jilary duff
all the same by sick puppies
beautiful lie by beyonce and shakira
high school never ends by bowling 4 soup
hot in herre by nelly
lifestyles of the rich and famous by good charlotte
break it off by rihanna and sean paul
through glass by stone sour
what hurts the most by rascal flatts
better than me by hinder
just the girl by click 5
there’s gotta be more to life by Stacie orrico
learning to breathe by nerina pallot
dance dance by fall out boy
wonderwall by oasis
signal fire by snow patrol
icebox by Mario
living is a problem because everything dies by biffy cliro
into oblivion by funeral for a friend
obviously by mcfly
wait for you by elliot yamin
never again by Kelly Clarkson
let me love you by Mario
from yesterday by 30 seconds to mars
scars by papa roach
separated by usher
five colours in your hair by mcfly
iris by ronan keating
the great escape by boys like girls
this is my now by jordin sparks
1985 by bowling 4 soup
believe me by fort minor
whine up by kat deluna
goodbye to you by michelle branch
summer love by Justin timberlake
must have done something right by relient k
ride with me by nelly
geek in the pink by Jason mraz
good time by electrico
sugarwood going down by Patrick stewart
take control by amerie
working class hero by green day
easy by paula deanda
November rain by guns n roses

if i remember correctly, there's abt slightly more than 200 songs here. heh.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 12:08 AM

finally the screwed week is over. chem spa and h3 chem test today. spa was okay, didnt have any major screw ups(i think) and managed to finish in time. but h3 chem test was. kind of hard to describe.

thought process throughout the paper(there are only 4 qns but the full marks is 100):

[while doing question 1] sian.... why got so much to write... lidat where got time to do behind?
[while doing question 2] oh shit... how come dunnoe how to do so much? aiya anyhow zam...shld have some correct right?
[while doing question 3] omgwth. y i never see any of this kinda reaction mechanism/ or any type of this qn before wan? how to start? what to do?
[while doing question 4]die already die already die already... not enough time to finish already... how how how?

yup so that's how it was during the test. by the end of the test completely give up le. it was just doing for the sake of not handing up an empty script. and the funny thing is i m not in the least bit upset when i know for sure that i will fail. maybe cuz after the paper ended all you can hear frm ppl arnd u is:
"GG..."
"die already..."
"fail already..."
"i never finish..."
"i got _(fill in marks)_ left haven't do..."
yup. and they said that those that fail will have to drop. looks like almost the entire h3 pharm chem cohort has to drop already. lol.

anw. one test down... and 5 more to go...

oh and seniors came back today to get their results. it was nice to see them arnd again... even tho we didnt get to talk to them a lot. oh and some people's clothes were just plain distracting. okay not so much distracting but more of laughter-inducing. was trying so hard not to laugh i decided not to look. lol.

oh and 26th march is a hol! they didnt eat up our hol! =)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:44 PM

am i too late?

should i have noticed and done something about it?

questions that i'll never be able to answer.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:41 PM

i know i said the weekend was screwed.

i hereby retract that statement.in it's place, i'm gonna make another statement:

this week is so damn fucking screwed.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 8:03 PM