mum's op yesterday was successful. juz tt she's drowsy and slightly dizzy. yup. hope she recovers well. its so weird to see ur own mum not feeling well to the extent whereby u need to take care of her and chores. its scary.

aniwae... on a lighter note, i watched a movie today. it was damn cute. heh. i wanna watch it again. it was really super cute. =p

anybody wanna watch GoF? cuz my dad apparently doesnt want me and sis to go out on weekdays w/o parents at home. bleugh. so i didnt watch GoF on monday. in fact i m pretty sure i won't get to watch it at all in the cinema. oh well.

u think u know a lot about me. guess again. its just the tip of the iceberg u see.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:38 PM

friday
my gown didnt split thank goodness. n i m not the only one with a tight gown!!! yay!! haha... anyway, although my gown didnt split, my shoe did. heh. was walking out of the choir room then i was like oh shit. cuz the sole came off halfway. and by the end of the day due to climbing so much steps, my shoe gave up on me and i ended up being lopsided for the rest of the day. lol. i went arnd holding the sole of the shoe, looking like an idiot. luckily it didnt split during a concert. =P

saturday
went out to IMM for lunch. n my dad gave me his answer to a question that i asked. a small miracle happened and he gave me permission [ thank You=)] . and i spent the rest of my day with a gradually worsening migraine until i hit the sack. oh well. tt's wat happens when i get too little sleep and dun eat properly [which i have been doing for dunnoe how long =p].

today
today was pretty uneventful. went for church in the morning, went out for lunch at crystal jade restaurant [O-O], and happily walked around with my sis who was looking for stuff for prom. and then we came home. tt's all. and i came back and surfed until now. heh.

i m supposed to go watch GoF wif my sis 2mr. cuz my dad definitely wldnt let my sis go out for 3 days in a row and she went out on thurs and fri.

oh n if i dun go out soon wif PEOPLE, i will officially go mad. cuz its no fun going out alone.

you say you know me too well. truth is, out of the three of us, you know the least about me. even lesser than you think you know. i am no longer the girl that you used to know in lower primary. i have changed. for better or for worse, you decide. because i can't be bothered to care anymore. the truth is known to me and that's enough.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:56 PM

shit la. my gown is too tight around somewhere. n i gotta wear it tomorrow for open house. die. i will die of embarassment if it splits tomorrow. seriously. i just hope it doesnt. or else... >.<

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:10 PM

haven't blogged for 3 days... was busy learning up some html stuff... heh... anyway, here's an overview of what happened this week:

tuesday
had cca today. was pretty okay. until they started trying out the open house songs. bcuz cheryl got called out and i ended up singing for sop 2 alone. >.<. so paiseh. anyway, ya. at least cannot hear me.so even if i get lost also nvm. haha.

wednesday
cca today again. did the crazy coconut song. ahaha. and we ended early.for once. haha. anyway, i came back home aft tt and help my mum type her stuff frm 5+ until nearly 1100pm. was damn tired aft tt. staring at the com for 5hr + is no joke. >.<

today
woke up and started printing mum's stuff. and now i am watching kids central teen titans. cuz i dun have anything to do. haha. anyway, i should be going out with my sister to watch goblet of fire in the afternoon. should be la. if my mum hasnt finished her stuff by then, then goodbye movie.>.<

anyway. i just finished watching teen titans. the ending was cute. haha.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 1:00 PM

the storm is almost over. i shall be careful not to aggrevate it again. haha.

anyway, i am super bored now. nothing much to do at home. i wanna go out!! haha... hafta wait for my parents to be in a good mood to ask them if i can go out. heh.

i missed the last session of YA on sunday...>.<... oh well. i juz hope my parents wil be persuaded by the end of this year at least. :I

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 2:15 PM

i m back to slack... heh... i m basically rotting at home due to lack of excitement in my dreary life... i really should get caught sneaking out one day. then my parents will ground me. at least then i can say that i have a valid reason for not going out. because now, i am as good as grounded. just that its unofficial.

i told patricia that i would just sit around and sulk on the night of the dinner... and if i feel better i would go online. but. i don't exactly feel a lot better but i am still online. because i borrowed my sister's discman. and i m now blasting the cd. at least it makes me feel slightly better. n i have started rambling again. oh well.

i want the storm to clear up properly now. but it won't. it will probably take a few weeks to do so. and sadly, i am not that patient. i hate walking on eggshells around people so as to ensure that i don't step on their tails. as in, every slightest detail will be picked on and magnified and well... yup. u get the idea. i am damn tired of this. i am sorry for getting so many people involved in this. it shouldnt have ended up like this.

i am damn tired.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 9:46 PM

we should live in the present and not in the future, for the future is too unstable for us to take. since we don't know what the future holds for us, why shouldn't we live in the moment and enjoy everything around us now? instead of preparing for something which we may not even need to face.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:55 PM

had cca today. and we were made to run 5 rounds arnd the classrms (abt the perimeter of the quadriangle) . damn tiring. the last time i was reminded that i had a history of asthma was during a bout of flu a few mths ago. and today i was reminded of it again. after running, i cld feel my windpipes constricting slightly. quite freaky actually. shall not run so fast nxt time. heh.

aniwaex... here's a quote :"we were not really in deep shit, more of like...[someone cuts in] shallow shit". lol. damn lame ya?

oh n the bus was damn crammed today aft cca. its the most packed bus i've ever seen. the people at the back are squashed, the people in the middle are squashed, the people at the front are squashed. how nice. but, to top it all off, i HAD to have a couple PDA-ing right in front of me. hence, to not feel like a stupid flashing lightbulb, i turned aside and remained in that weird position during the entire ride. >.< oh well. its a free world.


riding on an emotional rollercoaster is NOT fun

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:09 PM

the storm has supposedly blown over. until the next storm anyway.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:24 PM

what the hell do you want? i hate cursing like this. but i seriously have run out of patience. i admit: i was wrong. i apologised. what do you want me to do? go on my knees and beg for forgiveness? it was just ONE sentence. fine, it was rude. i know. that's why i apologised. and you still took it out on all of us. i m sorry for causing you guys to get into trouble. but anyway. i m in bigger trouble than u guys.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 2:28 PM

it was too good to last. some call it the calm before the storm.

when communicating, if pc answers are given to questions, there might as well be no communication. because all that is said are lies. purpose is defeated.

i have to say this: i am sorry for dragging you guys into this. really sorry. hopefully it will blow over by the end of this week for you guys. i think it will anyway. but i will have to wait a long while before mine blows over. oh well. i 'll just have to live with it.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 2:09 PM

something i got from blogthings
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How You Are In Love

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:46 PM

I. AM. SO. HIGH.

confirmation totally rocked. vc choir rocked too. everything during mass today rocked. tt's y i am so damn high now. somebody get a syringe. if i m still so high tomorrow u guys will hafta make me come down from the ceiling. or i will stay there forever or something near there. heh.


I AM SOOOOO HIGH!!!!!!!!!!!! =p

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:02 PM

confirmation in a few hrs time. i m nervous. >.<

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 1:16 PM

suddenly feeling v depressed... in 2 days time i will most probably be leaving a lot of my friends behind. it doesn't help that i just listened to every heart n bring me to life. i hate goodbyes. the worst is: in most cases, including this one, there won't be a goodbye. it will just be a slow n painful process of losing contact. and then the friendship will just end like that. this has happened too many times. i don't want it to happen again. i don't want to leave my friends behind again. but do i have a choice?

maybe i'll feel better later. hopefully.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:59 PM

choir today was quite unlike normal. sectionals were a lot more fun, juz like yesterday. but we did sing better than yesterday. however, somehow during combined we er... got a little lost n let's juz say it wasnt as good sectionals. nvm... we shall jia you... =p

no piano today!!! wootx... first time in a long time tt i can sit here in frnt of da com and slack on a fri... muz enjoy while i can...

oh n i nearly forgot. i bought new footwear today. at west mall. a rather plain pair of sandals. nothing too fancy. juz something formal enough for occasions where formal wear is required cuz i currently only have one pair of sports shoes for wearing out.

this isnt good. the dot on my foot is still there. let's hope it's a stubborn stain. =I

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:37 PM

several suay things happend today:
1) a tiny splinter got into my foot while i was walking outside the sectionals room. n i didnt even realise it until i got home. then i plucked the entire thing out (i think: there's a small dot left and its nt blood so i dun noe if it's a stain or part of the splinter).
2) my dad officially disallowed me from going to the dinner on 19th November. don't ask me why. he didnt give me an answer. it's nt transport bcuz patricia offered me a ride ( thanx=) ). so yup.

aniwae... other than that the day was somewhat okay. much better than the past few weeks where it was scolding after scolding day after day, hence the flamboyant expletives decorating my blog. yup. a lot more peaceful. =)

i hope my sis does well for As. she's been studying v hard for it. jia you!!! (nt tt she will read this anyway. she hardly visits here.=p)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 9:36 PM

at home alone... been online since 11+... happily surfing away... looking for lyrics and nice songs and visitng friendster... cuz i don't have much to do... no nice tv shows to watch n no way am i going to read the newspapers anytime soon (so sue me for that). yup. my wonderfully exciting day. and i tot my life couldnt get more wonderful. oh well. oh n got lectured by my dad for my results last night. again. whatever lor. i have tried hard. so it may not have been my best. but seriously the entire cohort did badly. it prob didnt help tt i totally failed my AQ.

okay. shall not think about such stuff. i will have to think of more interesting things to do to revive my social life. because currently, its dying>.<. budden come to think of it, it has always been that way. oh well. nvm.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 3:55 PM

had choir today... wasnt as bad as last wk... yup... at least we didnt sound so much like chickens like last week... haha...

anyway, was quite happy today because many of my juniors managed 2 get into IP... i juz hope they will be able to cope nxt yr ya? muz jia you=)

i may not be able to go for the dinner on 19th Nov...>.<

this post is a little incoherent...sorry abt tt...=p

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:23 PM

i kop this from jiamin because i m currently so bored i juz feel lyk whacking myself against the wall juz to feel less bored.

1.Whose picture is it that you keep in your wallet?

do ezlink cards count?


2. What time do you usually go to bed?


from 11+ to 1+. depends la.


3. What was the last thing you did before filling this survey?


surfed many many blogs until i ran out of blogs to read.


4. Who are the people you always meet the most?


depends on what time of da yr it is. during hols, its cca mates n family, during sch terms its classmates n family.


6. What's on your mind right now?


can i get out of the house for once on my own with permission before i get so bored until i really decide to whack myself against the wall???


8. With whom do you wanna be to have fun?


what do u mean by fun?


9. What movie do u wanna watch now?


just like heaven, chicken little, sky high and harry potter. and as usual, i will end up watching none. yup.


10. When was the last time you went out?


at abt 8+ for mass.


11. Who do you hate the most for now?


no one. i still haven't managed to master the ability of getting angry at a person for more than a few hours at most at one shot.


12. When was the first time you slept alone?


in pri 3. n now i dun even dare to do tt again. juz call me a chicken. *cluck*


13. What do you wanna do for now?


get something more interesting to do or something in tt line.


14. What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?


go sch for cca when there is cca, read, surf, chat online, chat wif my sis until she falls aslp (this is on her command), supposedly study (when i am asked to), get scolded(ya its an everyday event but i m used to it any way), oh n watch tv. i think i haven't left out anything right?



15. What could piss you of?
unfair scoldings and treatment. tt so pisses me off it has made me do things others don't expect me to do.


16. are you an animal lover?


yup.=)


17. Colors that make you happy?


how do colours make me happy?


18. Most fav thing in your room?


my room is practically the house's store room. so unless i like toilet rolls, packets of titbits, vacuum cleaner, ladders, assorted decorations for diff occasions, etc, i guess the only thing i like is my clothes.


19. What was the last thing you bought for your room?


i don't buy anything to make my room look nice.


20. Any instruments in your room?


electric piano.


21. Can you cook?


some stuff. cup noodles and simple stuff i learnt in home ec. only prob i have with cooking is i leave the kitchen in a big fat mess. heh.


22. Miss someone?


no. i think i lack a heart anyway.


23. Plan to buy something?


ya. my own mp3 player. i don't need anyone to buy it for me.


24. Are you satisfied with your life now?


should i be?


25. Do you like seafood?


i don't mind most foods except fruits. tt i can't stand.


26. Breakfast or dinner?


dinner. i dun eat breakfast unless i m forced to.


27. What do you usually eat for breakfast?


buns? bread? cup noodles?


28. Did you eat breakfast today?


does a cup of milo count?


29. Do you recycle?


once in a while.(sorry alvina>.<)


30. Do you have a laptop?


i wish.


31. What's your favorite fast food?


i like most fried stuff. so i like most fast food.


32. Cats or dogs?


cat.


33. Salty or sweet?


okay with both.


34. City or country?


a bit of both wld be nice.



35. How do you prefer to spend your holiday?


actually exercising the actual meaning of holiday.


36. Is kissing normal for your age?


no comment.


37. Are you athletic?


i got a D for my PE. you think?


38. Do you swear?


if i say no, u will prob dig up my blog archives and start attacking me. so i shall not act guai and say no.


39. Would you ditch your friends for a date?


for that to actually happen i have to have a date. and we all know that this wouldnt happen.heh.


40. Do you have your own cell phone?


ya. the one and only ancient Nokia 8250.


41.what do you wear to bed?


more specific?


42. Ever had a crush on a teacher?


i don't think so. y wld i crush teachers?


43. Coke or pepsi?


no preference. pepsi tastes like diluted Coke. so y shld i have a preference?


44. Sugar or spice?


y don't u add 'or everything nice' to the question? then i can say chemical X.


46. Do you like to read for pleasure?


yup.


47. Do you care about getting good grades?


like hell i don't. i wld be killed if i didnt.


48.Have u ever fallen sleep in class?


yup. i have fallen aslp in every clzz except PE. if i fall aslp in PE, i will be asking for trouble. just imagine, i m dozing on court and someone throws the ball to me. anybody got ambulance on hand?


51. Do your parents give you enough privacy?


ya. they SO give me privacy.


52. Do your parents trust you?


yes. pigs fly.


53. Would you trade places (in life) with yourbestfriends?


so far i don't think so.


54.Does your best friend get on your nerves?


no. y wld she?


55. Do you tell your mom everything?


let's face it. i won't tell anybody everything.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 3:56 PM

guess wat happened yesterday. i came back from church by my dad's car and slammed the door accidentally. From this, my dad concluded that i m not ready for confirmation.O-O

derivation process:

1) i slammed the door (i claim it's by accident)
2) apparently it's because i don't "give a damn" about repairs that would have to be made if the glass from the
door were to shatter.
3) Hence I have no discipline, as can be seen by my results.
4) Thus, the wondering of what i have learnt from cathechism starts.
5) As it seems that i haven't learnt anything as i still have no discipline, i am not ready for confirmation.

Tell me, what does slamming the car door ACCIDENTALLY have to do with confirmation??

i was pissed for abt 5mins when my dad said all this. then i started feeling damn amused. because slamming the car door has nothing to do with confirmation, and somehow my dad managed to link the two. lol.

happily looking on the bright side of things

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 2:36 PM

you don't want to know how mega pissed i am now. i have never been so pissed with anyone my ENTIRE life. thanks for breaking the record. No one has ever made me give him or her the cold shoulder to such an extent before. seriously. if this goes on, i really don't know what i will do next. Don't force me to the point whereby i really snap. Then, it will be too late for you to do anything. This has been going on for years. but it's only become damn bloody obvious this year. and its getting worse.

i appear not to have an opinion because i gave up expressing my opinions and desires long ago. opinions and desires i have few. but everytime i raise them, you would just brush them aside. so what's the use of me raising them? i rather spare myself the disappointment.

n i don't fancy being the thing you can vent your anger on. it has been this way for so long i am used to it. but recently it's getting more and more personal and more and more frequent. what do you take me for? a non living thing that has absolutely no feelings whatsoever so it's perfectly fine for you to vent your anger on me because whatever happens i still turn up with a smile? DREAM ON. remember that i am a human. that i have feelings too. and i too have my limits. and i am thisclosetomylimit. Don't make me lose it. you don't want to know what i am capable of doing. i have had enough.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:41 PM