heh. i noe i shldnt b here. but the temptation is too great. FYI, i haf spent abt 4 3 hrs on da com alrdy. i m so gonna die for finals. oh well. wat's new. juz hope i dun get thrown back into O level track coz i dun tink i can adjust back to taking Os. altho i tink O level track is much less stressful.

something totally random i just wrote...

sitting on the lacquered chair,
seemingly without a care.
from her soulless eyes did shed
a tear in which her heart did bled.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 8:06 PM

today was one of the best school days i had this year. although it didnt start very well. thanks to choonleng, alvina n minzhi for helping mi out during tt tight spot SOMEONE put me into. that so very nice someone. other than that it was quite okay. managed to pass my math retest with a more presentable mark. oh n i happily left out the sine in the sin rule when i applied it. super smart of me right? lol=P

aniwae... was watching shooting stars juz now. i wanna watch nxt wk's episode!!!! fine, i admit it. i'm a sucker for sappy endings. so kill me.=)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:16 PM

somehow 2dae's math test didnt suck as much as i tot it wld. surprisingly i did more qns den i expected b4 time's up. even tho i didnt finish. juz hope i pass. n if i m not tt suay maybe i'll get 30+??? ahaha... wishful thinking... i haf almoz forgotten how it feels lyk 2 pass a math test... if mi math tcher of laz yr knew 206'04's math results this year i think he'll be QUITE shocked... moz of us r failing lyk mad... haha...

haf ss first thing 2mr. n i hafen done da test paper yet. >.< will hafta do it later... after i finish slacking...=)...

i think i played 2 much badminton during PE yesterday. got muscle ache... =p... i m rusty btw... i nd oiling... badminton has deproved...lol

shit.16 days left. oh well. 26 days to end of exams.=)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 8:00 PM

math retest 2mr. n i m here blogging. but i dun feel guilty. cuz i relli dun haf da motivation 2 study math anymore. at most i'll juz fail 2mr's test. tt's all. i wun feel bad abt it. its alrdy numb.=)

played badminton during PE 2dae n realised i was relli in nd of practice. either tt or i nd new eyeballs. cuz i juz swing the racket and u can c da shuttlecock juz fly past the racket abt one inch away frm it. i nd new eyeballs. ahaha. =p cock eye me.

i hafen done hwk yet. whee. i dun relli bother. im juz doin my bez 2 slack. tt's all.=)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:04 PM

ok. i m guilty of the offence of not updating my blog for 5 daes. which is a lot compared 2 the many entries i haf made.

anyway, this week was supposed to be a holiday. until mon, wednesday, thursday and saturday got booked for several reasons:

mon-bio
wednesday-math n physics
thursday-choir(actually i m ok with this.)
saturday-CIP(actually i already completed my hours ya?)

yup. and to make matters worse, i haf been fighting wif mi dad a lot recently. n apparently according to a person not involved in the matter, its my fault: i have developed an attitude problem. yup. a BIIIG problem. fine. i have been rather bitchy lately. oh n don't forget the wide mood swings too. those tt haf gotten worse thruout the year and social probs i m encountering doesn't make me feel better either. yup. not to forget the exams are coming up.

days to exam: 21
days to end of exam: 32

i don't know what to think of myself anymore

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 1:04 PM

the class went for the Vatican exhibition 2dae. n i cldnt go...>.<... dad said that he wld bring me after my exams are over. prob is, my exams end on the 10th with physics. n the exhibition ends on the 9th. talk about empty promises.

aniwae... sep hols r here!! whee~... but there r extra lsns... cuz da syllabus hasnt been fins yet... so i hafta go back 2 sch for 3 out of the 5 daes of sch hols there r...>.<... nvm... at least i get 2 slp more... lol...

i can't stand this facade anymore. but there isn't anything i can do. i am trapped.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:41 PM

i am damn fucking pissed now.

apparently walking arnd the ENTIRE neighbourhood twice looking 4 one miserable magazine is not enough. yup. walking arnd for 45 mins arnd the entire neighbourhood feeling lyk shit cuz u hafen eaten aniting except a small bowl of steamed egg for the whole dae n super scared u juz collapse or sumting cuz u hafen been feeling well since da laz time u fell sick. n u r alrdy starting to feel dizzy. n u still continue walking, looking 4 the magazine, in vain.

n wen u get home, the first thing tt happens is tt someone flares up in ur face, totally pissed at ur not being able to get the magazine. regardless of how u tell her tt u really went everywhere to find it, she still seems to think that you didnt really put your heart into it n only checked a few locations. fine.

at least now i know where i stand. right behind at the back of the queue, with inanimate objects like magazines way in front of me.

u just don't care do you? sometimes i wonder why i even bother. the worst part: I shld be the one that will stay angry for the longer period of time, but you know what? i think in the end, i will be the one in the wrong again.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:42 PM