bio quiz was not v gd... had not enuff time 2 fins... aiya... still got ss test 2dae... juz manage 2 fins in time... but 3rd qn confirm 0 wan... cuz i dun even noe wat i am toking abt... nvm... at least laz qn got write a lot...

later still gt pack chem n physics file... >.<... gt turn da whole house upside down b4 can find all mi stuff...=P... budden nvm... at moz get scolded onli...

saw ronald yesterdae... dun tink he recognises mi... he's as tall as mi now lor!!! laz time p1 ,p2 tt time he shorter den mi by a LOT lor... >.<... wat can i sae... i m vertically challenged...=/...

n patricia had heard abt rumours spread abt her n sumone else... lol... nv tot other ppl will spread rumours abt her... but it has happened...=P

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 5:44 PM

sch's reopeng 2mr... n guess wat? i still hafen fins mi hwk yet n dere's a bio test and ss test dis wk n i hafen studied yet and i still haf 2 help mi mum wif sum of her stuff n mi SIAs r in a mess n i dun wanna go back 2 sch 2mr n...

I AM SICK!!!!!!


i gotta flu... fever n itchy throat n runny nose n blocked nose and sneezing... da works... n i still hafta do all mi hwk n SIAs n study 4 mi tests n help mi mum wif her stuff n wake up early 2mr n do mi maths n well yup. u get da pic rite?

i relli hope mi temp will go up. den i dun hafta go 2 sch 2mr. budden i noe i m not tt lucky. so i will still hafta do all mi stuff by 2NITE.

sigh

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 6:38 PM

arrived in sch super early 2dae... den went 2 da library n slack... cuz no place to go... so sad rite? lol... budden at least can slack w/o getting scolded...=P...

yesterdae wasnt as bad as i tot it wld b... though i hafta sae i wish it wasnt bad at all... budden tt's juz wishful tinking...i m still trying 2 b optimistic abt da outing... hopefully wif sum luck dey will lemme go... otherwisie i dun haf a choice...

2 days to sch reopening... so sad... hols relli flew past juz lyk tt... nvm... shall wait 4 Dec sch hols...=P

long wait>.<

you are forcing me to do something i don't want to do... something you don't want me to do... something you hate me to do... but you seriously leave me with no choice...

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:23 PM

i relli screwed up... messed up damn badly... because of u... but even so... i only blame myself... i still find myself wondering how u r now...

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 1:31 PM

i dun wanna do hwk. i dun wanna go back 2 sch. >.<

4 more daes...>.<

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 10:37 AM

i m gonna set da fire 2dae... so tt da fire will have burnt out by nxt wk... so i can plant the crops in fertile soil...tt is hopefully da fire burns out by nxt wk... or else i will be devastated...

i noe da above doesn't make sense but yeah. i dun relli wanna spell everiting out now so i'll juz hafta make do wif saying dis no matter how crazy it sounds...

some things just have to be done and gotten over with... no matter how hard it is...

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 12:36 PM

here 2 crap summore... got a lot of SIAs... hafen fins yet... dunnoe y dey insist tt muz haf so mani SIAs and onli ONE deadline... wat crap rubbish lor... we r not robots la... holidays r supposed 2 b 4 REST!!!

definition of holiday from oxford dictionary online: "an extended period of recreation, especially away from home. 2 a day of festivity or recreation when no work is done."

it seems that something is seriously wrong here. the oxford dictionary is widely accepted to be one of the most accurate dictionaries that exist, and yet their definition of holiday has a slight difference from what we experience.

it must be due to a typo error musn't it?

yes, it must be.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 7:43 PM

stupid. SIAs. suck.

if my lit tcher was here, he wld b quite happy. cuz i juz did alliteration by mistake.=p

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 9:56 AM

actually i shldn't b blogging... budden i juz dun feel lyk doin work... even though it's only one week to start of sch... wat crap lor... time relli flew by... nvm... shall juz make da moz of wat i haf left... and slack!!! wahahaha....

okiex... aniwaex... went 2 sch 2 do chi SIA dis morn... den went coro 4 lunch... spent 6 bucks... bin a long time since i spent so much on food sia~... budden quite filling la... dun tink i will b able to eat dinner liao...=P...

hafen study ss n bio... hafen sign report bk-> a bit hard to go out on 3rd july... nvm... shall start tinking of ways to get to go... =)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 3:43 PM

now i understand why they say that fate conspires against you when you try to do certain things. because it is true. fate does have a rather cynical sense of humour n i dun tink i appreciate it a lot. >.<

juz get out of mi head okay? life is already complicated enough without u arnd

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 5:44 PM

was trying 2 print out a document 2dae... den i click print oredi... den da paper came out and guess wat?

i printed a piece of white paper =)

den i tried again n i ended up printing another piece of white paper

den i tried da laz time.

n i still got a piece of white paper.

conclusion: mi printer is as stubborn as me=)

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 4:56 PM

nowadays, it doesn't affect me anymore. it has no effect on me whatsoever. i don't know why, but it just doesn't hurt me anymore like it used to. Maybe it's because it's become a common sight already. i know others felt the tension and were slightly distraught, but surprisingly, i felt nothing except the tension.

i sound cruel. but it just doesn't matter as much as it used to anymore.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 11:41 PM

A mask is what you see,

That’s what I have come to be.

Resilience is my name,

You’ll never see through this game.

The false facades,

My way with my cards,

Pseudo laughs and smiles,

They run on for miles.

My fun and games just down the lane

Are there to hide me from my pain.

Memory lane is the path I never take

For I don’t want to fall into hurt’s deepest lake.

Trepidation I would feel if someone saw a hole in this mask,

And then mending the hole would be my first task.

Thus I continue parading for the masquerade,

Through my mask no one will ever invade.

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 3:10 PM

confi camp was v. fun!!! da games were quite fun la... wif da xception of FEAR FACTOR ya? miracle none of us got diarrhoea( @ least i tink no one got=P).... yupx...
the praying over sessions were relli meaningful... i admit i nv ever cried so much since p6... i didnt dare to let it out... i dun tink i will ever tell anione everyting i cried for... i juz can't open up so much... but it felt relli good 2 juz let it out once n 4 all... i dunnoe y... mebbe bcuz i tend 2 bottle tings up n not tell anione... pretend i m fine... smiling... not showing wat i feel... even to miself cuz i noe i can't face it... wearing mi mask for so long i actually forget its there... forget tt its not a part of myself... forget tt there will cum a time whereby da mask will juz shatter n i m left standing dere wif nuthing...

okiex

enuff angst

all tt's over aniwae

at least for now

tt's all i care abt =)

if i cld live mi life again noeing wat i wld face now, i wld still choose 2 haf met u

- da blur gal tripped and fell here @ 2:52 PM